Agoraphobia fear does not like to be watched.
As an agoraphobia sufferer, whenever I left my home, I was aware of the ultimate big panic that was looming in the background, just waiting for the right moment to overwhelm me. The distance between me and my home felt like a block of space between us.
It was always an uncomfortable, background feeling that just would not go away and, as a result, interfered with whatever I was doing. The feeling was blended together with my vague, imagined ultimate panic experience, which I always felt was just waiting to pounce. Cowering away from it was my natural response. I was always just hoping and praying that the panic would not come, or that I would be able to cross the distance back to safety before I became overwhelmed by the fear.